Its impossible to plan ahead without mapping out every possible thing that could go wrong without a plan and an idea, a desire. i thought i had achieved this, but yet here its still catch up to me .Here is the million dollar question, if i had know that the things i said and did would leave me surrounded with everything and everyone i want, but feeling empty, would i do it any different? am i even really empty or am i just craving more than i even deserve (i don’t deserve any of it ) more than i even want. i’m not the worst person in the world, but i’m far from deserving.
we all have secrets.
im sure you have told a lie.
but how far would you go to hide something ? what if the truth meant you would lose everything, what if you didn’t care.
deep down most of us are just well hidden sociopaths with agendas and secrets that are hidden under our well preserved lives. and that’s okay, because neither you or i have the right to judge. im just here to tell you things that have been carefully hidden for such a long time, that now its boring. and i need excitement.
don’t we all need a little push into the excitement?